From: eltf@hotmail.com (Eliot Lefebvre) Subject: [Eva][FanFic] Neon Epoch Evangelion: Episode 6 X-Moderation-Queue-Date: 24 Jun 2002 16:17:29 -0700 The following is an activation of the Emergency Pre-Story Warning System: This fanfic is an original take on GAINAX's "Shin Seiki Evangelion." It contains alternative characters, plots, and a different overriding internal logic. It is intended, from the beginning, to be different. This includes different Children and different histories. In short: if the mere thought of someone other than Shinji in the cockpit of EVA-01 makes you queasy, you are in -entirely- the wrong place. Any and all flames stemming from this alteration will be mocked mercilessly. You have been warned. Well, things haven't normalized with the schedule at all, combined with the fact that I am apparently working for a retarded howler monkey. But that's neither here nor there, really. What -is- here (or there) is the fact that next week sees another batch of episodes posted to the archive at http://www.lostfactor.net/nee.html, not to mention a content update to the rest of the site. Hey, life's been busy lately. Enjoy the show. No talking. Turn off your damn cell phone. ]++[ ]+ ELECTRONIC TRANSCENDENCE PRODUCTIONS +[ presents ]+ NEON EPOCH +[ ]+ E V A N G E L I O N +[ ]+ EPISODE 6: GNOTHI SAUTON +[ By Eliot "Lostfactor" Lefebvre Based off of "Shin Seiki Evangelion" by GAINAX ]++[ Therefore no one will be declared righteous in his sight by observing the law; rather, through the law we become conscious of sin. - ROMANS 3:20 ]++[ The room was filled with a pitch-black, permeating darkness, save for the single spotlight at the end of the table that shone on Gendou, reflecting off of his glasses at just the right angle to obscure his eyes. He leaned his elbows comfortably on the table, hands tented just in front of his mouth, the same pose he found himself shift into reflexively any time that he was performing his duties as the commander of NERV. The fact that he had to perform this aspect of those duties immediately was something of an irritation, but confessing such to his superiors would have only made the situation worse, and he knew it. As he'd expected, a white light at the other end of the table snapped on, followed by colored lights to the sides, red and green on his right, blue and yellow on his left. Each light illuminated the face of a man, all visibly older than Ikari and bearing some kind of condescending expression towards him. It was nothing that he wasn't accustomed to, the sense that the others thought of him as lesser because of his youth and inexperience. He made a point not to be disturbed by it. "May I ask why this emergency meeting has been called?" he asked, remaining in the same position as though he were stone. Silence remained for a second, the other figures remaining motionless as if to test Gdenou's patience. After a minute, the figure at the end of the table, looking like the oldest of all and wearing an odd contraption over his eyes, furrowed his brow for a moment before replying. "The Third Angel, Sachiel. The Fourth Angel, Shamshel. The Fifth Angel, Ramiel. The Sixth Angel, Gaghiel. Ikari, do these names mean anything to you?" "NERV's first four encounters," he replied coldly, sounding as though he had no idea what the other man was implying even though he knew perfectly well. "We have successful neutralized the first six seals now. If you desire, I can provide video footage of the battles, though the footage of the Sixth Angel -" "You avoid the point," noted the man sitting in the green-lit spot, staring smugly at Gendou as though he were simply waiting for the younger man to make a mistake that he could be damned for. "Four angels in slightly less than two weeks. You have had to make serious repairs to four Evangelions, plus the cost of cleanup, plus the cost that you have incurred by choosing to modify EVA-00 without the comittee's approval." He paused, his expression and pose unchanging. "SEELE does not wish to see its money poured after nothing." "It is hardly nothing," replied Gendou, casually pushing his glasses up with one hand before returning to the same position as before. He knew that his movement would make the others look down on him somewhat, but he also knew that there was virtually nothing that he could do to improve their opinion of him. "Mankind must defend itself from the Angels. Without the Evas, we cannot do that." "Perhaps you forget that there are greater purposes to the Evas," spoke another figure, this one inside the yellow light. Gendou felt a twinge of resentment at the statement, at the implication that he wasn't sure about what his own project was supposed to be doing, but he ignored it, remaining silent and motionless. "Your primary job is not to create a military force with the machines. You would do well to remember that." This time it was Gendou's turn to remain silent, pushing up his glasses again and letting the rest of the council wait for a moment before he said anything. "I have not forgotten," he replied, folding his hands back into their prior position. "Complementation is proceeding according to schedule. There are only six seals broken in the first place. Accelerating the timetable would only ensure our destruction." "We do not lack patience, Ikari," replied the man at the head of the table, still unmoving. He stared at Gendou for a moment, as if he was expecting the other man to flinch, but Gendou remained motionless, simply staring down the table as though the situation was perfectly normal. "But we will not tolerate defiance. This project is too important for waste, and if you prove to be wasting either our money or our time you can be certain that you will lose your occupation." "I would not doubt it," replied Gendou, noting that they'd apparently come up with a new euphemism for his death. He'd never bothered bringing it up, but he knew without a shadow of a doubt that SEELE would destroy him irrevocably if they decided he was no longer useful. "You need not worry. Complementation is progressing, and the rash of Angel attacks is a freak occurrence. I already have my staff looking into it." "Good. See that you produce some answers." There was a pause, then the colored lights snapped off, the other men's faces vanishing from the table. It was nothing surprising - Ikari knew they were holograms, knew that no memeber of the council would be daring enough to appear in person before him. The figure at the other end of the table remained, however, still glaring hatefully at Gendou. "The comittee will reconvene in pritvate." He paused. "Do not think that you are beyond our power, Gendou." Then the last light flicked off, and only Gendou was left, sitting alone at the table. He paused for a moment, then reached into his coat pocket, drawing out a small silver telephone. Pushing back his chair and standing, he flicked the the receiver open, pressing a button and putting the phone to his ear, waiting only for the sound of the phone being picked up before speaking. "Speed up the timetable on Ayanami, Dr. Fuyutsuki. SEELE is growing nervous." ]++[ Niobe had never grown accustomed to moving, had never really had the chance to. However, as she'd unpacked her belongings into her new space, set up the photographs and posters that she wanted to keep with her over the dull gray walls of the room, she found that she was an old hand at it even without prior experience. It was somewhat gratifying, especially considering that she'd been afraid she had brought too much. Instead, as she looked around her room, her belongings arranged meticulously as she'd been taught, she realized that the room actually looked a little sparse. Shrugging, she wrote it off to her lifestyle and the inherent blandness of the room's paint scheme, bending over and smoothing the sheet on her bed. "May I come in?" asked Ryo's quiet voice, muffled almost to inaudibility by the door between him and the room. Niobe jumped slightly at the noise, not having expected it despite the fact that they were living together. She'd been informed by Kaji on their way from the boat that Ryo had volunteered to have someone share his apartment, but he had barely spoken two words to Niobe her entire first night there. It had actually been somewhat disturbing, the blue-haired boy remaining silent even after her attempts at conversation, simply eating dinner and then going straight to bed. Pushing the thought from her mind, Niobe walked over to the door and opened it, flashing a smile at him. He was already dressed in his school uniform, and Niobe felt a little underdressed, still wearing the boxer shorts and oversized navy blue blouse that she'd worn to bed next to Ryo's immaculate shirt and slacks. "Come on in," she replied, stepping away from the door as he moved into the room. "You came at just the right time - I just finished up unpacking." Ryo didn't respond to her comment, instead simply looking around the room, red eyes scanning over everything as though he'd never seen such a place before. After a moment, he stepped over towards the lone table in the room, picking up one of the small porcelain figures that Niobe had placed there. She felt a rush of embarassment and worry at the same time, but said nothing, simply watched as Ryo delicately turned the small white lion cub over in his hands. "What is this?" he asked quietly, sounding genuinely curious. Frowning, Niobe stepped over to him, snaking her arm around and plucking the small figurine out of Ryo's hands and staring at it in admiration for a second. "It's a lion cub," she replied, smiling unconsciously as the memories came flooding back. "My father gave this to me when I got the female lead in 'The Nutcracker' for my school. I was eight, I think. Maybe nine." Placing the lion back amongst the other porcelain animals gently, she turned back towards Ryo, still smiling. "They're about the only thing that I collect, and that was my first one." "Why do you have it here?" asked Ryo, staring at the small collection of animals with almost empty eyes. The question took Niobe aback briefly, but then she realized that he wasn't asking as if he didn't want them there - he genuinely didn't seem to understand why she had brought it with her. "Do you need it for something?" Cocking an eyebrow, Niobe stared at Ryo again, trying to figure out what was going on behind his red eyes and pale skin. "I don't -need- it, no," she replied, sounding a little indignant despite herself. "But it helps me feel more confident. Every time I remember that day, I remember what it felt like for my dad -" She shook her head, catching her self. "I remember what it felt like when Joseph was proud of me, pleased that I had been so successful. And that makes me feel better about now." She shrugged, blushing again. "It's just a keepsake." "A keepsake," muttered Ryo, his left hand closing more tightly around the strap of his schoolbag, recalling the sketch that Eiko had meant for him to give to Nieve that still sat within the bag. He understood the word, but as he stared at the small porcelain object he still couldn't understand the meaning behind it. "Does that mean that it's an object of art? Is that all?" "No, that's not it," replied Niobe, gently touching the boy's shoulder and drawing his attention back towards her. His eyes were penetrating in a way that she'd never seen before, a sort of hungry curiosity dancing across them as though everything was completely new to him. Looking into them, Niobe felt as though she could feel an underlying sadness to him, but she pushed it out of her mind, focusing instead on the question. "A keepsake is something that you care about. Something that helps you remember. Don't you have anything like that?" Ryo stared back at Niobe for a moment, then looked towards the porcelain animals once again, still feeling very confused. "No," he replied at length, knowing that the answer was correct but feeling as though he hadn't quite understood the question. "I don't have anything like that." He paused, then looked back at Niobe, seeing the shock evident in her blue eyes. "Is there something wrong?" "You..." Niobe shook her head, shocked at Ryo's response both on general principal and because of the vague memories that it stirred up at the back of her mind. Shutting her eyes for a second, she composed herself silently, then stared back into Ryo's eyes, the same sensation of being scrutinized by the red iris as before. "It's just odd, that you don't have anything like that. Don't you have things that you want to remember, things that remind you of happy times?" "I have no problem remembering things," replied Ryo, glancing back towards the animals before recalling that he had a routine to keep and looking at his watch. He had only thirty minutes to get to school by eight, meaning that he would have to walk quickly if not jog. He was running behind on his routine, not something that usually happened to him. "I have to go to school now," he announced, stepping out the door. "I will see you again tonight." "Um. Okay." Niobe was unsure of what to say, the boy's comments lingering in her head even as he walked out of the apartment and shut the door behind him. Flopping backwards onto the bed, she stared upwards at the room's fluorescent light fixture, a pale white that seemed to cast the dull gray into even starker relief. Her room was right near the front door to the apartment and had no windows, and shutting her eyes it felt as though it were a newfound prison, sharp contrast to her window-filled room painted a bright yellow back at home. Sighing deeply, she opened her eyes again, tilting her head towards the arrangement of porcelain figures on her table, the small lion cub at the head of the group from where she was staring. "Doesn't have any trouble remembering," she muttered, feeling both confused by Ryo's responses and somewhat useless. She wasn't supposed to go into NERV until later in the day, which meant that until then she had to find something to entertain herself, which further meant that her mind had nothing to focus on besides Ryo's cryptic comments. An idea formed itself in her head, and she thought on it for a second before smirking to herself, pushing off of the bed's clean white sheets and stepping out of her room. Ryo had shown her where his room was, and she had no doubt that it was unlocked. "We'll see what you -do- have, Mr. Ayanami," she muttered to herself, walking down the hall past the kitchen, turning left and away from the bathroom and den towards his bedroom. Placing her hand on the door handle, she had a brief moment of guilt at the thought of invading his privacy, but she swallowed that thought, resolving to tell him when he got home before turning the handle and opening the door. The room was almost completely empty, and for a second Niobe wondered if she'd gotten the wrong room, if he had another spare bedroom in the apartment. But as she stepped into the room and looked around, she could see another one of Ryo's school uniforms hanging up in the still- opened closet, and she knew that she'd gotten the right room. It was, for all she could tell, a hospital room, completely sparse, the white bed unadorned, a single metal table in one corner of the room with a few objects on it, a clean bureau agains the wall near the head of the bed, and a few bandages on the floor. Curious, Niobe glanced about for a second before stepping over to the table, feeling as though she were walking through a mental institution. While she'd had some idea of what was on the table before she'd walked over to it, something inside of her had wanted not to believe it until she saw it, made her want to think that her eyes weren't catching the full picture. Standing beside it, there was no question that she was seeing correctly, a table with more bandages piled on it, a few beakers of water, and the unmistakable orange perscription bottles that seemed to somehow have spread throughout the world as the universal symbol of medication. Narrowing her eyes, she picked up one of the bottles, examining the label as though she expected to see someone other than Ryo's name on it. Most of it was in Japanese, but she could read the name without trouble. "Ayanami Ryo," she muttered, placing the bottle back down on the table and scanning the room again. She finally found something else in the room besides the slightly- stained bandages and the utilitarian items, posted within the closet as though to obscure it even futher. It was a tiny photo, wrinkled so badly as to be almost unrecognizable, taped up on a part ot the wall that seemed unlikely to be reached by the sunlight, the lines around it making it very clear that it had been torn from something else, most likely a newspaper or a magazine. All it was, much to Niobe's surprise, was a picture of a kitten lapping up milk, a rather cute picture aside from the obvious age of the thing. "This is all he's got," she muttered, stepping away from the closet and sitting down on the bed. "Just that one photo." Closing her eyes, Niobe found herself drifting back to a time many years prior, the part of the story about the porcelain figure that she hadn't told Ryo, when she was practicing as hard as she could to get into the part. She gritted her teeth, remembering how bright the sun had been on that one day, dancing across the pages of her book as she flipped through it, savoring the words as if they were a release. She had known that it was in her interest to be practicing, that without more practice she didn't stand as good a chance of getting the lead, but she was enjoying a momentary break, simply reading her book and relaxing in the warm caress of the sun. Then she remembered her father storming in, and her eyes closed tight, hands gripping the edge of the bed more tightly almost reflexively. She remembered her father's strong hands grabbing the book out of her hand, his deep voice bellowing at her with an intensity that she'd never heard before, her smaller voice pleading with him not to do what she knew he would. Her grip on the bed tightened again, and she remembered seeing shreds of pages on the floor, her father pulling her roughly to her feet as she tried to reassemble the pages, pushing down the bookcase without any restraint. A single tear began to form at the corner of her eye, thinking about the sight as her toys were snapped apart, broken indiscriminately. Without even meaning to, her mind brought her to that horrible day, sitting in the wreckage of her room, her father standing over her with the sun seeming to wrap around her, ignoring the fact that she was shedding hot tears over the torn white paper on the floor. "You were getting distracted," he had said, his voice the same sort of stern bellow that he used whenever Niobe had failed to do the right thing. "Distractions prevent you from reaching your full potential. I know it seems harsh now, but you'll thank me in the future, when you're successful." A lone tear splattered against Niobe's leg, catching the sunlight from Ryo's window, and she snapped out of her reverie, looking around his room once again as she wiped the water from her dark skin. "Just like this," she whispered, standing from his bed and feeling unusually oppressed by the walls, more so than she had even in her own room. "It looked just like this, after Joseph got rid of everything." She sighed, rubbing the back of her head, stepping swiftly over to the door and through it, closing it firmly behind her. Despite the warmth of Tokyo-3, she suddenly found herself feeling very deeply cold, down to the bone. Hesitating for a moment, she walked to her room, resolved to grab a towel and get into the shower. It seemed like the only thing that could even start to cut through the chill of memory. ]++[ Neil awoke, as he had ever since he'd come to Japan, with a single image flashing across his vision, the sight of the green eye against EVA-01's helmet. At first, the sight had scared him, but now it simply seemed to be a persistent memory, one that it might take years to train out of his mind. Though he couldn't recall ever hearing of someone in a similar situation, he also knew that he was one of the first people ever to pilot the Evas, and from what else he thought about himself he knew that he wasn't a normal person anyways. Once the eye had faded away, he blinked, rubbed both of his own eyes to clear the sleep from them, stumbling to his feet and grabbing a ratty Third Eye Blind shirt, one of the few things he had from his father. Still not thinking entirely clearly, he shoved open the door to his room, blinking in the bright light as he headed towards the cupboard where Misato kept her cereal, opened the small wooden door with a little too much force so that it slammed against the fridge, then pushed his hair back with one hand and grabbed for the box of cereal that he knew was there. Feeling his hand close around it, he tugged, then realized that there was someone else holding onto it. Checking, he saw the other person's hand, and half-consciously followed it up their arm to their shoulder to Nieve's face. "Oh. Morning, Nieve." "Morning, Neil," replied Nieve, sounding perfectly alert as she tugged on the box. Neil slowly found his eyes returning to focus, and he saw that Neil was wearing a rather revealing outfit from bed, a thin blue t- shirt that stretched down to midway on her hips. She stared at the cereal box for a moment, then released it with a shrug, leaning back on her arms. "You can have it first. I'm in no hurry." "Thanks," replied Neil, his reflexes slowly returning as he removed the box from the cupboard, then opened another to get out a pair of bowls. He hesitated for a moment, then remembered that Nieve was there as well and would need a third bowl. "You seem to be in a better mood this morning. Sleep well?" His comment seemed to remind Nieve of something, and as he began to pour cereal into his bowl she grabbed his shoulder, spinning him around slightly and standing disturbingly close to him. "Don't think that I necessarily forgive you for yesterday!" she snapped, ignoring Neil's sigh as she held onto the chest of his shirt. "You tried to take advantage of me, and I don't appreciate that. If you ever do something like that again, I will be -far- angrier than I was yesterday, and you can be certain that you -won't- get to live it down." She paused, then released his shirt, apparently satisfied by the blank stare she was receiving from Neil. "But yes, I didn sleep well. Better than I have in a while. I'm kind of surprised, to be entirely honest." Neil considered what to say for a moment, then decided not to dwell on the prior day's events, though he still felt a twinge of guilt when he remembered how angry he'd allowed himself to get. "Glad to hear it," he replied, finishing with the ceral and then offering it to Nieve. She took the box, and he stepped over to the refridgerator, pulling out the red carton of milk within and pouring it over the brightly-colored cereal. "You had a better run of it than I did - my first night in Tokyo-3 was spent first inside an Eva, then in a hospital bed." Chuckling even though he wasn't quite sure why, Neil grabbed a spoon, then walked over to the table and sat down, crossing his legs and beginning to eat. Nieve, having been ready to pour the milk herself, had been stopped in her tracks by Neil's last comment, something she hadn't expected. She still thought he had done a terrible job in his first encounter with an Angel, but she hadn't known what had happened afterwards. "You were put in the hospital?" she asked, regaining her composure as she poured on the milk, then went to sit down next to Neil. "Yeah," replied Neil, biting his lip momentarily before taking another bite of his cereal as Nieve sat down beside him. "I was out of it for most of the battle, come to think of it. They said that I did excellently, but I only have distant memories of it." He shrugged, noticing that Nieve hadn't taken a bite of her cereal but deciding not to ask about it. "I was released after a couple days, though. It wasn't anything serious." "Oh," replied Nieve, suddenly feeling guilty for being so angry about his performance in EVA-01. She'd assumed that he'd been in complete control of the machine, that he simply hadn't been paying much attention, but the thought that he might not have been threw a new light on things. Realizing a split second later that she was letting herself mope, she forced herself back into a determined smile, slapping Neil heartily on the shoulder. "Well, the only cure for that is to make sure that you've got a firm control over your Eva. Trust me, I've been working with these things longer than anyone, I'll teach you everything I know." Neil wasn't sure of exactly what to say, so he stayed silent for a moment, taking another bite of cereal and knowing that Nieve was staring at him. "Misato taught me how the thing works already, and I sort of got a crash course in piloting it against the Third Angel." He paused, and he could see as Nieve took a bite of cereal that she wasn't happy with his statement, though he couldn't quite tell if she was angry or just sad. "But it is hard, working with the machine. I still haven't mastered it." "Working -with- the machine?" asked Nieve, almost certain that she hadn't heard him right. She stared at him and cocked her head to one side, and Neil, unsure of what she was expecting, nodded. Nieve said nothing for a moment, then could no longer resist the temptation to laugh, ignoring Neil's indignant expression for a moment. "I'm sorry, I'm not laughing at you," she offered, holding up a hand as a peace gesture as she leaned on the table with the other. "It's just a silly concept. You don't work with the Eva, you tell it what it's going to do. Make it work -for- you." Before Neil could say a word in response, Misato cleared her throat behind both of them, and they turned their heads to look at her, Neil particularly fascinated by her outfit. She was wearing a black miniskirt and a black jacket over a bright red blouse, with a small golden pin on her lapel that was shaped like the NERV insignia. "Good morning, guys," she said, waving to the pair of them as they stared, neither having expected her to be so elaborately dressed. "Sorry, but I'm not going to be able to have breakfast with you this morning. I've got to be to Central Dogma early, so that we can leave on time." Watching as Misato moved across the room, stepping into the kitchen quickly and grabbing the lunch that she'd made the night prior, it was only a matter of time before one of the Children asked Misato what was going on. As it happened, it wound up being Nieve. "Where are you headed?" she asked, sounding just the slightest bit accusatory. "You didn't tell us anything about a trip today." "This is one you're not going on," she noted, winking at Neil, who smiled back. She'd remained genuinely apologetic about the prior incident, and Neil appreciated the gesture, even though he was certain Misato didn't know exactly why. "There's an American company, Babel Technologies Limited, that has apparently been working on developing an alternative to the Evangelions." She paused. "Apparently, NERV's American branches have been working with the company, along with the US government. We only got a report from our intelligence department about it recently." Scowling, Nieve slammed her fist down on the table, furious. "I -knew- it!" she snapped, gritting her teeth in anger, feeling as though she'd been violated even further by not knowing the details. "I knew that there had to be a reason why we had to go by ship instead of going through America. I didn't think that it would be that bad, but..." Sighing, she leaned back, holding herself off the floor with her arms and still obviously angry, though she wasn't sure if it was more because she'd been delayed by the American obfuscation or because the implication was that she needed to be replaced. "So, NERV's going to do something about it, aren't they?" "Yes. Hear them out." Misato closed the refridgerator door, lunch in hand, and ignored Nieve's indignant squawk as she turned back towards the Children. "Listen, Nieve, if we just blow them off, then NERV will probably lose the support of the US, and considering the fact that we're in a budget crisis anyways, we'll only be shooting ourselves in the foot by doing it. So we're going to go to BT's presentation of their weapon, they'll do a demonstration, and the UN will decide whether they want NERV to switch to their project instead of our own." Nieve coninued to glare at her, and she sighed. "Nieve, it's not going to be able to manifest an AT Field. It's not using any of the technology that's been developed with the Evangelion project. There's no way that it can stand up to an Angel, and I'm sure that will be made clear in the demonstration." "And what if they don't?" snapped Nieve in response, obviously in no mood to back down. "I know that the UN has only given approval to the project because they've realized that they don't possess any weaponry strong enough to destroy the Angels. If they think that they've got something capable of hurting them, they'll sideline NERV again!" Misato said nothing, and Nieve's scowl deepened as she slammed both of her fists down on the table. "I'm starting to think that you want their new weapon to work!" "Maybe I -do-," replied Misato, freezing in mid-step and then turning back towards Nieve. Nieve was about to speak up again, but she could see the strange expression dancing in Misato's eyes, somewhere between concern and simply anger. "You're not invincible. None of you are. And fighting the Angels isn't a video game, it's real life." She paused, realizing that she was sounding far harsher than she wanted to, and forced herself to take a deep breath. "The point is, if they come up with something that could actually fight the Angels without putting your lives in danger, I'd be happy to use it instead." Nieve wanted to say something in response, wanted to say that she'd almost rather have her life on the line and at least know that she was in control of whether or not the Angels won. But Misato's expression told her that it was better to hold her tongue, and she went back to eating her cereal, scowling as Misato stepped down into the area where her shoes were, slipping on her heels casually. "I'll be back late tonight, probably," Misato announced, staring at both of the Children and hoping for some kind of response. "Have a good day, both of you." The door closed behind her, and Neil and Nieve both sat in silence for a second or two. Then Nieve leaned over and smacked Neil firmly in the back of the head, feeling more frustrated than ever. He turned towards her with a questioning expression on his face, but she already knew the question. "You could have said something to back me up, you know," she said, sounding rather hurt. "We're pilots. We've got to stick together about these things." Shutting his eyes, Neil remembered the surge of anger that he'd gotten when he and Nieve had first met, remembered the way it had felt when he had hit Vash on the day they had met. It was a dangerously intoxicating feeling, and even the memory of it send a small tremor of adrenaline through him. "Maybe Misato's right," he said, standing despite the fact that he wasn't done with his meal. "Maybe it's better if there is an alternative, if we're not the people that are piloting the Evas." Left speechless by the boy's statement, Nieve simply sat and watched as Neil got up and went to his room, shutting the door behind him. She suddenly felt very small, unsure of what to do, and very much a spectator instead of an authority. She wanted to know what was going on, but more and more it felt as though others were plucking her strings. The thought was an uncomfortable one, and she pushed it from her head, focusing instead on her momentary resentment of Neil's statement. "Men," she muttered to herself, recalling how casually Kaji had taken their delayed arrival. "They just don't understand anything." ]++[ Vash could already tell what Kensuke was thinking, staring at the other boy with a blank expression. School being out had given him an excuse for not seeing his friend, but with the beginning of the week, there was no longer anything he could do. Instead, it had become a waiting game, Vash slumped back against the wall with his chair leaning back, Kensuke turned just far enough to stare at the other boy, both waiting for the other to say something. After what seemed like an eternity, Kensuke sighed, shaking his head and adjusting his glasses before staring at Vash once again. "Let me get this straight," he said, sounding a little baffled. "You had the Eva. You knew how to pilot it. You knew where the Angel was. Am I getting all this right?" "And the damn thing sent me back into the docks," replied Vash, gritting his teeth. He was resentful of the whole occurence on more levels than he could even begin to enumerate, especially knowing that it just made Neil seem all the more innocent for his actions. "Look, Kensuke, it wasn't up to me. I was recalled. You're the military buff, you should know that I couldn't choose whether or not I felt like coming back in." "Yeah, but I'm not the one who was in the Eva," replied Kensuke, shutting his eyes and grinning as the thought passed through his mind. Vash's scowl deepend, feeling as though he was receiving all the wrong kinds of attention. "Heck, after all that posturing about how you were going to show those slackers at NERV how an Eva should be piloted, it was that gaijin that wound up defeating the Angel, wasn't it?" "His name is Neil," replied Vash, sitting up, unsure of why he felt the urge to defend the other boy. He shook his head, closing his eyes for a second before glaring at Kensuke again. "Besides, he had Eiko protecting him, otherwise he would have been out of there as quickly as I was. I said that the two of us would show them, didn't I? How would they have done it without me?" One of the boys sitting next to Vash chuckled, and he glanced over, certain that they were either laughing at him or about him. The stare was harsh enough that the boy felt the urge to explain, and he opened his mouth, then started laughing again. "You mean, 'How would they have done it without my girlfriend,' right?" Gritting his teeth, Vash snapped his head back towards the front of the room, focusing on the white walls of the classroom and the bland green of the chalkboard. "That's a pretty prejudiced view to take," he muttered, narrowing his eyes and feeling the stares of Kensuke and the others on him. There was a time that he could have deflected all of it with a casual joke, but now he'd lost that ability with his rather public failure, and all he could do was endure. "Where is Hikari, anyways? She should be telling us that class is starting soon." Ryo was distantly aware of the conversations going on behind him, but he payed them little mind, hearing Vash defend himself against the assertions of others that he had done terribly in the Eva. He had other things on his mind, most importantly Niobe's comments before he had left. Staring out the window with a blank expression, he watched as the sun traced its golden rays across the city, light glinting off the irregular window or the sheen of a car, the sky a mix of clear blue and vapor-filled white clouds. It was the ideal day, and aside from the ongoing recovery operation being performed on the remains of the Fifth Angel, an operation going on too far away for Ryo to be able to see it, the city looked like any other Japanese city in the wake of the Second Impact. "Ayanami-san?" The voice was one he was familiar with by association, and he turned his head towards the desk next to him to see Eiko, sitting as usual, always seeming somewhat nervous about talking with him. He stared at her, assuming that would be acknowledgement enough of his attention, and she swallowed hard. "Have you... have you seen Neil since the last battle? I thought that he was going to -" "Neil was on the ship transporting the Second and Sixth Children," Ryo replied flatly, surprised that she hadn't been informed by Dr. Ikari or Dr. Fuyutsuki. Not wishing to continue the conversation, he looked back out the window, observing the city again, Eiko's presence reminding him of the sketch that he still held in his bag. For the briefest of seconds, he wondered about the connection between that object and the objects in Niobe's room, wondering if their purpose was the same. Forcibly reminding herself that Ryo was just another kid her age, Eiko reached over and tugged on his shoulder, turning him back towards her. She was momentarily worried that he would be angry, but if he was he certainly didn't show it, keeping the same flat expression that he wore at nearly all times. "Didn't an Angel attack on the ship?" she asked, certain that Ryo would know the answer. "I heard rumors that the JSSDF Naval Branch was going to be deployed, because it looked like the ships weren't going to be able to activate the Evas." Ryo blinked for a second, feeling something that he'd never felt before. The small period of time since Neil's arrival had seen a number of new emotions enter his world, but this was one of the more awkward ones, something that told him he simply didn't want to talk to her for whatever reason. "You should ask Captain Katsuragi about these things," he said flatly, turning back towards the window. "Dr. Ikari has told me not to discuss NERV's operations in school." Eiko frowned, unsure of how to interepret the response. With any of her friends, she would have known that they were being flippant, and if she'd said that her parents had told her not to do something it was almost a certain precursor to her doing precisely that. But Ayanami's statement seemed different, as though it genuinely mattered to him that the commander had given him the order. "All right, all right, I'll ask them this afternoon. Will you at least tell me what's going on with Neil?" "I believe that the Second Child has moved in with he and Captain Katsuragi," he replied, still feeling the awkward sense of almost impatience at the back of his skull, not bothering to turn towards Eiko this time. "Her housing arrangements were made before she arrived in Tokyo-3." Eiko didn't say anything in response, and he took it to mean that she was finished talking, allowing him to refocus his attention on the situation in his apartment with Niobe. "She...?" Eiko whispered the word to herself, not loud enough for Ryo to hear, not wanting to explain emotions to him that she didn't even fully understand herself. It wasn't particularly unusual, she assumed, to have the personnel for a military organization housed together, though she knew that Kensuke would know the answer. But something in her didn't want for Neil to be living with a girl, to be living near anyone else female. She frowned, sinking her head and shutting her eyes tightly, trying to understand why it even mattered to her. At the back of the room, Vash could see Eiko's head sink, and he knew from experience that it meant she was upset about something. He'd been humiliated enough already, but he didn't like the thought that she was being humiliated by something else, the idea that he was falling down on his own tasks because of his classmates. "Hey, Eiko!" he shouted, starting to stand from his seat. She turned her head towards him, then one of the girls from the glass shoved her head in front of him, asking him some mocking question that he was only paying the vaguest attention to. Grimacing, he tried to stand, but he still found himself surrounded by a sea of noisy questions. Ryo was lost in his thoughts, an experience that he wasn't accustomed to, when he heard Eiko's chair slide back. Slightly curious, he glanced towards her, then followed her gaze towards the back of the room, seeing Vash swamped by almost the entire remainder of the class. "Vash isn't doing too well," she muttered, only barely speaking loud enough for Ryo to overhear. Closing his eyes, Ryo remembered Eiko's words to him before, standing in front of EVA-00. Pushing his own chair back, not quite sure of what he was doing, he stepped towards the group of students, startling them simply by the fact that he'd moved out of his seat towards them. "Leave him alone," he said flatly, his quiet voice carrying an intensity with it that somehow managed to cut through the louder voices surrounding Vash. "He was given poor tools to work with in his first encounter. That's all." He paused, letting his words sink in as he lowered his gaze slightly. "He didn't understand what it was like to pilot an Eva any more than you do. Now he does." There seemed to be something hiding within Ryo's words, and that combined with his simple bluntness effectively silenced everyone as he walked back to his desk, sitting down without another word and turning back towards the window. The emotions stirring with him hadn't entirely settled from his actions, but they seemed different somehow, in a way that he simply couldn't place. Shutting his eyes for a moment before staring back out at Tokyo-3, wondering why he was feeling different now, what all of the new things in his life meant for him. ]++[ Despite her best efforts, Misato had managed to be late for the departure to the conference, and she'd had to turn around and speed her way across Japan to Tokyo-2 in order to be there in time, something she'd tried to explain to a police officer before showing him her NERV ID and getting back on her way. It was somewhat embarassing, but she'd never been particularly adept at the art of being anything other than late, something she remembered her mother always scolding her for. And, as if to aggravate the problem further, the parking spaces allotted for NERV's core personnel had already been filled, meaning that she had to take the only free spot in the parking garage on the lowest level before running in high heels into the building and to the conference room where it was being held. It was as much of a surprise to her as she expected it would be to the rest of the staff at the meeting when she managed to walk in before the presentation had started, and she checked her watch to find that she had a good ten minutes before the speaker was scheduled to begin. The projector was showing the classic Second Impact footage, the orbital pictures of a huge explosion, the news reports about a tiny object moving at amazing speeds hitting and melting the South Pole from orbit. Smiling to herself, she smoothed back her hair, then casually walked across the tan-walled room, heels clicking despite the thin black carpeting as she approached the circular table reserved for NERV's senior officers. She could see Ritsuko's blonde hair before she reached the table, and she tried to take her seat as casually as possible, hoping that the other woman wouldn't make an issue out of her timing. "Hey, Ritsuko," she said, smiling at the other woman as she sat and waved. "Have you been waiting long?" "We left when we were scheduled, Captain Katsuragi," replied the other woman, wearing a deep blue outfit otherwise similar to Misato's, her white lab coat wrapped around her and trailing over the edge of the chair. Misato sighed almost involuntarily, knowing now that she wasn't going to be able to live down the situation. "You hadn't arrived at the time." "There were other things that required my attention," she replied flatly, staring up at the screen in front of her, watching the latest computer-rendered display of the meteor tearing through the atmosphere and striking the ice cap. She bit her lip, forcing herself to keep away from her first reaction. "Nieve was distressed by the implication that we're willing to sell her out for the first alternative that comes along." Ritsuko shook her head, shutting her eyes and letting a humorless smile drift across her face for a moment before taking a sip of the champagne in front of her. "That's hardly something she needs to worry about," replied Ritsuko. "Whatever the Americans have cooked up, it won't be able to manifest an AT Field." She paused, and Misato knew what she was doing, trying to let her implications sink in before she said them outright. It was a habit that Misato remembered from the earliest days that she'd known Ritsuko, something that had annoyed her then and still did. "You should have told that to Nieve." "I did," Misato replied, still watching the footage, her left hand resting on the white tablecloth of their table while her right moved unconsciously to a spot an inch or so below her left breast, feeling the mark beneath it even through the layers of cloth. "It didn't do any good." Turning towards Ritsuko, she wondered how the other woman managed to stay so certain about the situation, how she had no doubts that their jobs would still be there when they woke up the next morning. "You can hardly blame her. Her mother and father gave their lives to the project... more even than that. And she's on the road to do just the same." "She has nothing to be worried about," replied Ritsuko, uncrossing her legs and then crossing them again in the opposite direction, obviously fighting the urge to light a cigarette. "If the American branch didn't use information from Project Evangelion, then they can't have developed anything capable of using an AT Field. And if they did use information from our project, then they wouldn't have brought us here, because all they would have is an alternative design." Misato sighed heavily, feeling as though she were carrying on a conversation with a brick wall. Sometimes she thought it would actually be better if Ritsuko didn't have emotions, so that she didn't lace all of her words with an air of self-importance, with the implications that she was doing everything right and Misato was doing everything wrong. Forcing herself to think about something else, Misato turned back towards the screen, noticing that the footage had looped back to the orbital photos and news reports. "You don't think that the American branch told the company what actually happened at Antarctica, do you?" "Perhaps," replied Ritsuko, still sounding remarkably calm about the situation. "It's NERV's best-known classified information. Many governments that weren't to be informed managed to obtain the data anyways." She paused to sip her drink, now focusing on the footage as well. "But unless the American branches managed to gain tremendous resources when we weren't watching, I doubt they know everything. We didn't tell them the whole truth, after all." Opening her mouth to reply, Misato was cut off when she saw Ryoji Kaji walking towards the table, dressed in the black uniform of NERV's Intelligence Division, his top button left open and black tie hanging loosely around his neck. He wore his usual casual expression, ponytail swinging back and forth behind him, the same two-day beard stubble that had always infuriated her. "What are you doing here?" she hissed as he sat down next to Ritsuko, leaning across the table in an effort to keep the conversation as private as possible. "Acting as the head of NERV Intelligence," Kaji replied bluntly, leaning back in his chair and obviously not worried in the least by Misato's concern. "Didn't you hear? Considering that the last director obviously didn't have as tight a hold on NERV's various divisions as he thought he did, he got replaced. I was next in line, apparently." He shrugged, offering only a smile in response to Misato's irate stare. "I'm as surprised as you are, frankly." "Surprised doesn't begin to describe it," muttered Misato, turning angrily back towards the main screen with her arms crossed. She wanted to say something to him, but the words didn't seem to want to come, at the tip of her tongue but just barely managing to escape her somehow. Irritated now by the presence of Kaji, Ritsuko's cold arrogance towards her, and the fact that she had been late in the first place, she glanced at her watch, hoping that the presentation would begin soon. Before her eyes could fully register the small digital numbers, the room began darkening, and the Second Impact footage faded away, signaling the start of the presentation and the first good news that Misato had gotten since the day had begun. There was a brief moment of silence and darkness before a man stepped up to the podium in front of the display screen, the darkness managing to obscure his features. He coughed gently, and the projector began rolling a new sequence of pictures, still of the Second Impact. The man let a few shots of the sequence show, then bent the microphone in front of him down and began to speak. "Sixteen years ago, the first of January, the year 2000, at approximately 8:23 GMT, an asteroid struck Antarctica with enough force to utterly destroy the ice cap." The sentence was accompanied by camera footage of the cap immediately after the impact, almost entirely empty except for a few remaining icebergs. "A research team on the site was lost as the first casualties of the strike, but many soon joined them as global water levels rose and the climate of the Earth underwent immediate changes." The sequence changed to a slow pan of the buildings of Manhattan, some still poking out of the water at the very top. "It was termed the Second Impact, after the First Impact that destroyed the dinosaurs. We humans proved significantly harder to kill off." Another sequence began to show, this one of NERV's American facility under construction. Misato mentally noted the convenience that they were showing only the American side of the equation, but she held her tongue, knowing that any outbursts would only make things worse. "It was only a short time after the Second Impact that we learned the truly horrific implications of what had happened. A research branch of the UN, NERV, learned that among the other changes, the strike had awakened a race of beings known as the 'Angels', creatures of unknown biology and shocking power. It was almost certain that mankind would be wiped out by these beasts, unless some kind of defense was formed." Once again, the display behind the speaker changed, this time showing EVA-03 in dock in its American facility. "The head of NERV at Tokyo-3 threw its resources behind the Evangelion project, headed by Dr. Gendou Ikari and Dr. Yui Ikari. However, the project suffered from numerous setbacks, including but not limited to the death of Mrs. Ikari and the fact that the project itself was based off of unreliable science to begin with. Misato tensed, and she felt herself gripping the tablecloth more tightly as the sequence behind the speaker began to show the opening moments of the battle against the Third Angel. Ritsuko put a hand on her shoulder, and she glared at the other woman, though she couldn't tell if it was because she resented the implication or that she was simply angry about the presentation. "They're intentionally showing us at our worst," Misato snarled. "They don't even understand what's going on, and they're making us out to be crackpots." "Don't worry," replied Ritsuko, managing to sound almost non- condescending with her tone of voice. She placed her hand gently on Misato's shoulder, and Misato sighed, feeling even more like a child that had to be kept under control as the speaker continued to speak of the flaws of Project Evangelion and its lackluster performances against the Angels. "This will never get off the ground. I'm certain of it." The speaker paused for a moment, then waved his hand, and the lights snapped back on, the presentation screen behind him going blank. "However, NERV's American branches invested their research into more productive methods of holding off the Angels, and we're proud to announce that we've at long last been successful at producing a reliable, -functional- defense against the Angels. Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you the first fully autonomous combat robot, Jet Alone!" With a flourish, the presentation screen rose behind the speaker to reveal a window, staring out into a cool gray room that housed the robot he spoke of. It was equal in scale to the Evas, from what Misato could see, with a bulky white torso and a squat red head almost seeming to be stuck on as an afterthought. There wasn't much of the machine visible, but she could already hear the murmurs amongst the crowd about the machine's appearance, apparently pleased that it was less disturbing than the Eva. Misato grimaced, and she stood forcefully, no longer able to control herself. "That machine wouldn't last a minute against an Angel!" she snapped, sounding angrier than she'd meant but as angry as she felt. Pausing for a second, the speaker smiled and gestured towards Misato, a condescending attitude about him. He reminded Misato of someone she'd seen in a movie once, a used-car salesman that simply seemed to ooze slime. From her point of view, it seemed an apt comparison. "And we hear from the senior staff of NERV, at long last." The comment met with a chuckle throughout the room, something that served only to aggravate Misato's anger. "Well, ma'am, I wasn't planning on opening the floor to questions just yet, but since you insist, please, explain to us why it wouldn't work." Misato sighed, but before she could say a word Ritsuko stood behind her. She wanted to look back, to tell if Ritsuko was looking at her with anger or approval, but she knew that doing anything of the sort would make NERV look even worse. Coughing, Ritsuko turned the attention of the room towards her, a minor shift from Misato. "It can't manifest an AT Field," she announced, sounding perfectly calm. "The whole reason that the Evangelion units are being used is because they are capable of utilizing and neutralizing the AT Fields of the Angels." "Ah, yes. I almost forgot. The Absolute Terror Field, the absolute crowning achievement of Project Evangelion." Leaning forward on his podium, the speaker stared at Ritsuko, a cocky half-smirk on his face at the mention of the field. Misato winced involuntarily, seeing that the man had obviously been prepared for the mention. "Such an acheivement, in fact, that I have yet to see a single coherent explanation of what it is. In fact, I have yet to see much coherent explanations about -anything- coming out of the project. Very convenient, isn't it?" "If you don't believe me, you can look at the battle footage," replied Ritsuko, her calm not shaken whatsoever by the murmurs of the other attendees. "The phenomenon classified as the AT Field is displayed clearly in all of the encounters we have had with the Angels. And in all cases, it was necessary for an Evangelion unit to neutralize the AT Field of the target." The speaker opened his mouth to speak again, but Misato stepped forward before he had even said a word. "Dr. Akagi is forgetting something. The battle footage will also clearly demonstrate how effective conventional weapons are." She offered the same kind of smug grin to the speaker that he had been wearing moments earlier, a gesture that he replied to with an outright frown. "Jet Alone is a conventional weapon. Do you really think that that's all there is to it? Throw a big enough weapon at the Angels, and eventually they'll make a dent? If an N2 mine wasn't able to damage an Angel, how will Jet Alone do any better?" "It won't have children staking their lives on its reliability," replied the speaker, drawing another chorus of murmurs from the assembled crowd. Misato's gaze narrowed as she gritted her teeth, annoyed at the thought that he would try to play on the audience's sympathies so blatantly. "Perhaps some of you aren't aware of this - the Evangelions are piloted by sixteen-year old children. Children recruited specifically by NERV, not volunteers." Once again, the crowd began to talk amongst itself, and the speaker grinned again at Misato, almost as if he were challenging her to come up with a better argument. She closed her eyes for a second, trying to block out the nagging suspicions that she was still having about precisely that, forcing herself not to think about the injuries that she'd seen the Children suffer. "They're not forced to stay," she replied, letting her eyes open once again and staring dead at the man at the podium. "We ask them to come, and they say yes. They're free to leave at any time." "And I imagine that you make that option perfectly clear," replied the speaker, provoking another murmur through the crowd. Some part of Misato knew that he was trying to egg her on, and that same part recognized that despite everything he was succeeding. "Another bit of Project Evangelion's science, the concept that only these children can pilot the machines. Rather sketchy, if you ask me." "But if only certain adults could pilot the machines, I doubt that you'd have any problem with that," replied Misato, forcing herself to keep her anger in check, somewhat gratified by the fact that the crowd was at least equally receptive to her statements as those of the speaker. "Frankly, isn't everyone's life at stake when it comes to the Angels? Is it any less fair to ask for children to pilot the Evas than it is to ask the rest of us to sit and watch?" The statement stung Misato even before she'd finished it, and she felt guilty about saying it, but she continued to stand, making sure that her facade didn't falter for a moment. The speaker seemed to have no such compunctions. "I think that's precisely the point I was trying to make," he muttered, his face obviously displeased with the direction that the session had taken. "All right, everyone. Questions will no longer be fielded. The demonstration of Jet Alone's capabilities will begin in approximately half an hour." He paused, obviously nervous. "You'll have the chance to decide for yourselves who you want to rely on." ]++[ EVA-00's repairs had been completed, aside from the standard maintenance performed on the machine, and for some reason Ryo found himself feeling unusual about that fact. The routine was one that he'd had drilled into his brain long before he ever got inside of the machine - it would be activated, be repaired, be activated again, be repaired again, and so on until all of the Angels had been destroyed. But there had never been any mention of the machine's design, of the color or appearance of his machine. He hadn't noticed it before, but after his conversation with Niobe, the thought wouldn't leave his head, the fact that his Evangelion unit was no longer the same as he remembered it. Objectively, it was immaterial. He knew that all it meant was he had a new routine to memorize, that now his unit was changed and he had to work with it. Yet as he stared at the single red eye of the machine, the blue helmet, the chest surrounded by the nutrient bath that kept the biological portions of the machine functioning correctly, he found himself wondering if perhaps the Evangelion itself was his equivalent of Niobe's keepsakes. It was an odd thought, and he realized it, sitting on the cold metal catwalk in his plugsuit, watching the machine remain stationary, two red eyes staring into a lone red eye. He knew that the machine was his to use, but he was almost certain that he did not use it to remember, which meant by Niobe's definition that it was not a keepsake. Still, the thought wouldn't leave his mind. "Ayanami Ryo, right?" The voice surprised Ryo, and he turned to see a red-haired girl in a bright red plugsuit at the end of the catwalk that led further into the Eva hangars, the blocky numbers on her chest marking her as the Second Child. He stared at her for a second, then rose to his feet and nodded, and she walked over to him, a slight bounce in her step as she extended her hand while walking. "I'm Nieve Soryu-Leary. Pleased to finally meet you." Ryo took her hand and shook it once she got close enough, examining her quickly before turning back towards his machine. For his purposes, the conversation had no reason to continue. Feeling a hard tap on his shoulder, he turned towards her, seeing that she obviously had very different feelings on the matter. "Aren't you going to talk to me?" she asked, looking a little hurt. "Seeing as how I'm the new Child and all?" "I hadn't planned on it," replied Ryo, turning back towards the Eva, his mind fixed on his prior train of thought. He was examining the project logically, a routine that he'd been taught by Gendou, something he expected primarily to use against the Angels. He knew that Eiko had mentioned her sketch was a keepsake for Neil, and he knew that it was supposed to be something that helped one remember. He also knew that Eiko had defended Neil with her life, and he knew that Neil had defended him with his life. There was a connection beneath it all, one just out of his reach, and it brought on the same sensation that he'd felt when Eiko was talking with him before in class. Nieve watched for a moment, trying to be polite, then shook her head and tapped Ryo hard on the shoulder again. He remained stationary for a moment, then turned his head towards her, eyes staring at her with an inexplicable intensity. "What are you thinking about?" she asked, trying to strike up a conversation once again as she glanced towards EVA-00 herself, admiring the machine's smooth lines. "You're obviously lost in thought, and it's obviously something about the Eva. So, what's going on?" To the best of Ryo's memory, nobody had ever asked him what he was thinking about, not even Gendou. The question felt odd, a definite break from routine, and he wondered for a moment if he should just remain silent. "I... I was thinking about events that have happened recently. I was attempting to figure something out." He paused, then turned back towards EVA-00, feeling as though he'd done something wrong. "I don't know exactly what." "Hmm. Fair enough." The statement sounded more than a little odd to Nieve, but she could identify with the feeling at least slightly, and besides that she didn't want to create tension between her and her fellows. Turning fully towards the blue unit herself, she crossed her arms across her chest, slightly unnerved by the synchronicity of the Eva's red eye compared with Ryo's eyes. "These machines are funny like that - even though you control them, you get to thinking about why you bother with it." She paused, her voice audibly shifting down slightly. "Why you stick with it even with all the bad things they bring to you." Ryo caught a hint of something else in Nieve's tone, but he didn't know what, lost in another train of thought. Perhaps there was a connection between why Eiko defended Neil and wanted him to have the sketch that lay within the piloting of the Eva. "Why do you pilot Eva?" he asked, turning slightly towards Nieve. Nieve grinned broadly and flashed Ryo an enthusiastic thumb's-up, the note of sorrow from her earlier words completely gone. "Because you're in complete control inside of the Evangelion," she replied, turning her smile back towards the machine and re-crossing her arms. "No matter how little you can control in the world around you, the Eva is yours. Nobody else can pilot it, nobody else can control it." She smirked to herself, lowering her head slightly. "You get to be the ruler of your own little castle." "Control," muttered Ryo, staring back at the Eva. He had been told by Gendou that he piloted the machine for the good of humanity, but if the others piloted it the way that Nieve described, it would certainly offer explanations about what was going on. His mind was forming connections quickly, extrapolating the idea that Eiko had been piloting the Eva to the fact that she had saved Neil, an oddly warm sensation flooding his body. "I understand." "Well, it's not a tough concept," she replied, more for her own benefit than his. She glanced towards the boy, his eyes still fixed on the Eva, and found herself wondering almost involuntarily what he was so intent on figuring out, what gave him the strange sort of intensity that he was carrying with him. Shaking her head, she turned towards the exit out of the Eva hangars, stepping around Ryo gingerly. "I'm going to go get changed. I just needed to come in for some minor synch work - most of my data's up to date, with all the testing NERV required up in Ireland. You..." She paused, unsure of how to say goodbye to the boy. "I hope you figure out whatever it is you're thinking about." "I will," replied Ryo, his voice flat but his mind racing. The noise of the catwalk door opening and closing only distantly registered in his brain, with his brain far more intent on finishing the connections that Nieve had started him on. He was intrigued by the fact that she could come up to the solution to his questioning so quickly, even without knowing most of the situation. Staring into EVA-00's eye, he wondered if perhaps Nieve's statement had wider implications than she had said, that the Eva was a path to controlling others as well. ]++[ Sitting in one of the chairs set up for the viewing of Jet Alone's military demonstration, Misato found herself checking her watch for what seemed like the thousandth time in only a few minutes. There were still fifteen more minutes until the demonstration started, and with the slow crawl of minutes after the embarassing events of earlier it seemed as though it would be fifteen hours. But she'd forced herself to sit in the bland green skybox overlooking an abandoned airfield, Jet Alone visible at the far end of the field as various personnel set up what she assumed would be the tests for the machine. If nothing else, she wanted to prove to Ritsuko that she could be on time. Ritsuko, unsurprisingly, had given Misato a few choice words about her outburst after the fact, but Misato had been paying little attention to the other woman's scolding, more concerned about what she'd said to the speaker. She remembered Neil's anger at being coerced into the situation, remembered how Vash and Eiko were practically shoved in their machines with less than a day of training. For all that she wanted to believe that she was telling the truth, that she wasn't party to an organization that went about and randomly stole children for its own purposes, she was feeling as though that was the ugly truth of the situation. "Mind if I sit here?" The voice was deep, masculine, and familiar, and Misato whipped up her head to see Kaji standing over the seat next to her, mouth curled into his characteristic smirk, obviously not troubled in the least by the demonstration about to take place. Misato said nothing for a moment, then gestured towards the seat with a wide motion of her arm, a clear indication for him to sit. He nodded in gratitude, then took his seat, still staring at Misato. "Thanks. This place is starting to fill up." "Don't get the wrong impression," Misato snapped, whirling towards Kaji and glaring at him. "I'm not letting you sit there because we have a past. I'm letting you sit there because those of us who actually know what's going on in this situation need to stick together." She paused. "It's no coincidence that most of the NERV staff that's in attendance today works at the American branch. They wanted to make it look like they were being fair, but they just want to have our positions. So we staff members need to stick together." "Actually, I hadn't even considered the possibility you were giving the seat to me because of us," replied Kaji, leaning back and stretching his arms into the air above him. Misato frowned at him, then turned back towards the airfield, knowing that Kaji was at least partially lying but having no way of doing anything about it. "I thought that you were just giving the seat to someone who asked." Sighing, Misato turned her head towards the wall on her left, closing her eyes as she looked specifically away from Kaji. "Why are you here, Kaji?" she asked, feeling suddenly as though she was back in college all over again. "You weren't in NERV before. You weren't even in it when I joined, when we were still together." She paused, an idea occuring to her. "Did you come here for me?" "I came to find something," replied Kaji, the humor seemingly evaporated from his voice. Misato turned back towards him and could see that he was being deathly serious, something that she'd only seen happen a few times in all the time she'd known him. His eyes were focused on Jet Alone, but she knew that he wasn't actually looking at it, that the robot simply provided a convenient object to stare at. "That's all you need to know right now. You'll find out eventually." He paused, then turned towards her with a grin, as though he could cover everything up simply by acting casual again. "Besides, right now, I'm just here to watch the Americans make fools out of themselves." "You're in the right place." Neither Misato or Kaji had noticed Ritsuko enter the room, nor had they seen her walk towards them until she was standing more or less directly over Kaji's shoulder. She seemed not to mind the fact that she had been unintentionally ignored, simply sitting down without any ceremony and staring out at the robot. "I managed to get a look at the robot's blueprints, and the thing isn't capable of manifesting an AT Field. It won't be an effective weapon against the Angels." "That's great, Ritsuko, but we don't have any Angels handy to demonstrate that fact," replied Misato, slumping down slightly in her chair. Checking her watch, she could see that there were only a few moments until the presentation began, a fact that did little to reassure her. "They'll just see the fact that it works against conventional targets, and they'll find it a lot more comfortable than the idea of sending out children. We'll be back to square one." Neither Ritsuko nor Kaji had a response to Misato's statement, and the three staff members remained silent as the lights in the room dimmed slightly and Jet Alone began moving, the announcer's voice giving everyone watching a clear description of each action taken by the machine. Misato failed to be even vaguely interested, too worried about the prospects of sending the machine into combat against an Angel to be paying attention to its performace. She could see that it was an effective weapon, but it was hardly up to the standards of the Evas, even without considering the factor of the AT Field. Jet Alone's demonstration was scheduled for half an hour, and Misato found herself glancing at her watch in despair as the machine walked through a line of drone tanks, the loudspeaker coming on once again. "Jet Alone will now turn to the left and retrieve its primary armament, the experimental Phase Cannon." There was a pause. "Um... Jet Alone has apparently detected a threat outside of the primary target." Misato knew the tone of voice that someone used when trying to cover up from her own usage, and she brought her attention back towards the white robot as it lumbered across the airfield on its spindly limbs, moving far faster than it had been before. "Er... Jet Alone's onboard systems appear to have suffered a minor malfunction. It's nothing serious, a simple navigational error. We'll have it cleared up in a few moments." "They're lying," muttered Misato, watching as the machine lumbered off of the airfield and into the foothills surrounding the field, heedless of the obstacles in its path. She glanced towards Kaji and Ritsuko, and both nodded to her as she stood, headed for the exit with her companions close behind. She had to get to the command center for the robot, find out what was actually going on. And, though she hated the thought, she might find something out that would ensure the project's abandonment. Luckily enough for Misato, the control room was only a couple floors above, and it was only a short climb upwards into the center. Once she stepped inside, she could see that the officials were doing their best to contain a disaster before it became a catastrophe, the green metal room lighting up with red alerts all over, computer screens flashing angry screens and announcing the alert situation with grating noises. One of the staff members inside stepped towards Misato, but she pushed him aside, stepping into the room without even bothering to show her badge. "What's going on?" she demanded, drawing the immediate attention of nearly everyone in the room. An awkward pause hung in the air for a moment, then the speaker from the earlier presentation stepped forward, looking extremely nervous. "Jet Alone's undergone a serious malfunction. It's headed straight for Yokohama-2, south of here. Once there, it's apparently received orders to self-destruct." He paused, sighing heavily and obviously distraught. "It's not obeying any of our commands. Something's corrupted the system." Despite herself, Misato smirked, knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that the project wasn't going to get any further than it already had. "Shame about that, really. We're going to have to destroy the machine. Get in touch with the UN intercept forces, have them scramble the aerodrones to Jet Alone's location and -" "You can't do that!" exclaimed the former speaker, a panic rising in his eyes that gave Misato pause. All three of the NERV staff members stared at him for a second, and he sighed heavily, distraught. "Jet Alone is powered by a nuclear reactor. If you destroy it, then the reactor will go critical... it'll turn the area into a radioactive wasteland." Misato paused for a second, then clenched her fists tightly, resisting the urge to hit the speaker as hard as she could manage. "You knew this? And you were simply betting on the fact that it wouldn't get damaged in a battle?" The speaker offered no answer, and Misato slammed her fist against the nearest computer console, feeling the uncontrollable urge to do a lot more damage than simply hitting something. Then, taking a deep breath, she reached into one pocket of her jacket, retrieving a small cellular phone. "All right. I have an idea." ]++[ "Eiko, are you ready?" The question was a statement more than a question, with an obvious right and wrong answer, something that unnerved her slightly as she watched the ground race beneath her machine. She'd been stopped just before leaving the facility, told to quickly change back into her LCL-soaked plugsuit and get back into the Eva's entry plug, do just what she'd done before except for the fact that it was no longer a simply synchronization test. The mission information had only been relayed to her after she was in the air, over a static-filled radio connection with Misato. Luckily, the connection had grown better as they'd gotten closer, but with her Eva facing facedown towards the ground, her thoughts were more on how strong a hold the plane had one her machine than they were on the radio conenction. "I'm ready," she replied, knowing that she'd have to be sent in even if she wasn't "Get you into Jet Alone, then do my best to hold the machine back while you try to shut it down. Simple enough" Closing her eyes, she felt the Evangelion's limbs around her once again, the same as before, but this time Neil was nowhere nearby. He had been to the synch testing required and then left before she'd shown up, and she'd been stopped before she had a chance to go see him. She hadn't even been given a choice, just forced into the Eva. And she hated being forced. "Why am I being used, anyways?" "Your machine has armor designed to reflect energy projections from the Angels," replied Misato, watching as the speck in the sky that she knew was the Eva transport plane grew closer and closer. She had already changed to the skintight red-white radiation suit that Jet Alone's staff had provided, an awkward fit to say the least. "If I'm not able to make the thing shut down in time, you've got the best chance of survival." Misato's words sent a sudden tremor of panic down Eiko's body as the plane neared the drop point, the power cord attached to her back being given more slack in anticipation of her release. She'd felt confident before, knowing that Neil was there to keep her safe, but relying on Misato felt different. Despite the way that she knew she'd seemed, she also knew that she wasn't very brave. "You'll be able to shut it down, right?" she asked, watching as her display began to show the drop point far below with a blinking light. "I mean, it can't be that hard, can it?" Biting her lip, Misato watched the plane come closer, the silver surface of EVA-04 glinting in the sunlight. "I certainly hope it's not that hard," she replied, moments before the plane let out a burst of smoke and let the Eva begin to fall, the black cord trailing behind it unwinding from within the plane at an amazing pace. She watched as the machine seemed to suddenly realize that it was falling, moving from a prone position into a sort of mid-air crouch before it hit the ground hard, debris rising from the ground as a deafening crash filled the air, the gray pavement of the ground shattering under the landing's impact. Eiko remained crouching for a moment, then extended the Eva's hand towards the ground, letting Misato climb in. The woman climbed into the palm of the gigantic gray hand, looking almost like a speck against the sheer size of the Eva's palm. "All right," she said, still speaking over the radio as Eiko stood, clasping her other hand around Misato to make sure that the woman didn't fall. "Now you've got to catch up with Jet Alone. There should be some kind of guide on your display -" "Got it," replied Eiko, digging in her machine's heels for a second before she started it running, focusing her entirety on making the machine go as fast as she could, feeling its muscles pulsing just beneath the surface of its armor. She crashed out of the airfield, through forests and plains, the power feed from the plane remaining steady as she began to approach the white and red robot, crashing its way across the highway as cars fled from it. "I can see it, Misato! What now?" Ignoring the distinct dizziness that being jostled in EVA-04's hands had caused, Misato forced herself to remember her own momentary briefing. "Place me on the back of the machine," she replied, squinting slightly as the machine opened its hands and extended one towards the robot's back, running ever closer to the other machine. "Once I'm inside, get in front of the thing and do everything that you can to push it backwards. Your AT Field will help slow it down, but you might have to grapple with it - the field isn't really meant to be used like that." The robot was only walking, and while it took long strides it was only seconds before Eiko's hand was resting on the thing's back and Misato jumped off, flashing her a quick sign of approval before grabbing hold of a hatch and yanking it open forcefully, jumping inside. Gritting her teeth more firmly, Eiko moved to one side and ran around the machine, pushing her Eva's legs harder than she'd thought possible as the silver unit raced past the robot, then came to a stop slightly ahead of it as it turned to face Jet Alone. "AT Field, full power," she muttered, focusing all her energy on the field itself and shoving the handles of her cockpit as far forward as they could go. The robot hit the octagonal field only a few meters away from EVA-04, then began pushing against it, obviously not distressed by the fact that it was being held back. "Shut it down, Misato." Misato distantly heard Eiko say something, but the thought was pushed from her mind as she entered the service room of Jet Alone, cast in a red light by the flashing alerts covering the room. The entire thing was a maze of pipes and cubes that didn't seem to serve any immediate function, obviously designed for engineers and not for her. Struggling to ignore the intense heat of the room, she glanced around for the console that she'd been told would be there, scanning the room for a second and wishing that the helmet she wore had some kind of peripheral vision before she noticed a flashing computer screen set up against a wall. Hopping over to the screen, she began tapping away at the keyboard, struggling to remember the commands as the screen flashed a warning of only four minutes remaining before self-destruct. "Eiko, this might take a minute." "Hurry!" Eiko shouted, already feeling the cold steel of Jet Alone's body pressing closer to hers, the AT Field buckling inward despite her concentration. She doubted that she could withstand the thing's death throes, much less grapple with it, but as it came closer she found herself without any other options, jerking her arms upwards and pushing them against the thing's chest, digging in her heels as best she could. "I can't hold it back!" "You're going to have to!" replied Misato, grimacing at the computer screen. "The system won't allow me access to it - I think it's part of the program malfunction! I'll have to shut it down manually!" She reminded herself mentally that she didn't know how to do that, then began looking around for something that looked as though she could move it, something that might be an emergency shutdown lever of some sort. "We've got three and a half minutes left until it explodes, at least." "That's supposed to make me feel better?" asked Eiko, noticing that someone up on the plane had seen fit to add the countdown clock to her display as well, blocky green numbers seeming to count down until her death. Panic gripped her body, and her hold on the Eva faltered for a moment, giving Jet Alone the chance to surge forward. The machine slammed into her chest, and she forced herself to stay upright, wrapping her arms around it and trying to push it backwards with all the force that the machine could muster. As she felt her heels digging furrows in the ground beneath her, however, she could tell that it wasn't working. "Please, Misato, shut it down. I don't want to die." "Neither do I," Misato muttered to herself, seeing what looked like a row of gigantic buttons along one wall of the room. Glancing around for a second to see if she could see any better possibilities for an emergency shutdown switch, she sighed and threw her body against the nearest cylinder, pushing all of her weight behind it. "I'm trying to shut it down, Eiko, but it seems like it's jammed in place." She paused, suddenly feeling very helpless as she struggled desperately against the warm metal. "I don't think I'm going to make it." Eiko felt something warm against her eyes, and for a moment she thought that the LCL was warming from damage, the way that it had against the Fifth Angel. Then she realized that tears were forming at the corners of her eyes as she strained against the machine, watching only the green numbers slowly tick away to a minute. "You've got to shut it down, Misato. You've got to." She felt the tears beginning to flow more freely, the white robot proving too forceful for her to hold it back. "I don't want to die. I don't want to die." Misato felt sweat pouring out of every conceivable part of her body, the thick scent of the salty fluid filling her nostrils and her mouth going bone-dry in the horrible heat of the room. All her efforts didn't seem to be even budging the metal cylinder in front of her, even as she forced everything she could behind it, trying to push it in, knowing that if she could just manage that everything would be all right. "I'm trying, Eiko," she replied through gritted teeth, the fear of death striking through her desperately. "I'm trying as hard as I can." The countdown was down to half a minute and going fast, and Eiko found herself unable to control her terror any longer, her focus on the Eva fading almost entirely. "Shut it down, Misato! I don't want to die! Please, there's more that I want to do!" Her tears were blurring her vision to practically nil, but she could still see the green numbers running down, closer and closer to their mutual destruction. "I don't want to die! I DON'T WANT TO DIE!" In the back of her mind, Misato knew that the countdown was reaching the final seconds, and she forced everything she could against the cylinder one last time, still without it budging a centimeter. Defeated, she slumped weakly against it, knowing that she could no longer do anything. Then, as she leaned on the heated metal, she felt it suddenly retract along with its fellows against the wall, moving back to be flush with the surface of the metal room, the alert light going off. "It... it shut down," she muttered, unsure of what to think for a moment. "Jet Alone shut down." Eiko, curled into the fetal position with her eyes shut tight, tenatively opened them, almost unable to believe the words even as they echoed in the cockpit. The countdown had stopped at less than one second remaining. "You did it, Misato," she breathed, wiping away her tears as best she could in the liquid bath of the LCL. "You shut it down in time. You saved us both." "Yeah," replied the woman weakly, leaning against the now-smooth wall as the temperature returned to normal, knowing that she had nothing to do with Jet Alone's sudden decision to shut down. The machine had shut itself down at the last moment, and Misato knew that it wasn't a coincidence, that somebody had sabotaged the project. It was a foolproof plan - NERV looked better for having stopped the runaway robot, the robot itself would be scratched forever for having nearly unleashed a nuclear blast in Japan, and the American branches of NERV would get very firmly reminded of their place in the world. She remembered Ritsuko's insistence that the project wouldn't get off the ground, and a rather disturbing thought struck her as she removed her helmet, letting her hair flop against her suit, wet with perspiration. "Whatever the cost, we're safe now." ]++[ Outro: Neon Epoch Evangelion is based off of -Shin Seiki Evangelion- by GAINAX and company. It is not intended to be a straightforward fanfic, but it is building off the work of others, and as such it is done with the utmost respect for the original works and their authors. Basically, even though this is an original work, it's based off the work of others, and if you read this, you should go to see the original. Special thanks to all of the real Children - you know who you are. Extra special thanks to Joe Augulis for his consultation on the Japanese portions of the story. He might not know much Japanese, but that's more than I know. Copyright 2002 Eliot Lefebvre. NEXT EPISODE: The sky seeks the earth. A man seeks a woman. The Children seek one another. NEON EPOCH EVANGELION 7: HIEROS GAMOS "Because I love him." ]++[ We only have a little time in our lives to waste. Make the most of it. Electronic Transcendence Productions: http://www.lostfactor.net/ Producer of, um, stuff for an unspecified time-period. Rants: http://www.livejournal.com/users/lostfactor