From: "Rakna" Stoner Presents All I Want Is You A "Neon Genesis Evangelion" Lemon Side Story Fanfic Written by Jeremy Mullin (stoner317@hotmail.com) Based on "The One I Love Is..." by Alain Gravel (rakna@globetrotter.qc.ca) "Neon Genesis Evangelion" characters and situations created by and copyright Gainax, all rights reserved, used without permission. Please don't sue, I have no money. NOTE: This is an alternate sidestory based on events in chapter 6 of "The One I Love Is...". The events in this story didn't happen, but is an idea of what may have happened based on the material. Standard lemon warnings applied, don't read if you are underage or don't like lemons. For those who came in late: Shinji finds he's in love with both Rei and Asuka, but can't decide between the two for fear of hurting them. Recently, Shinji went with Asuka on a camping trip in what appeared to be an attempt to try and get Toji and Hikari together, but soon discovers it was all really a plan of Asuka's to seduce Shinji and beat Rei by being his first. Angered and hurt, Shinji moved out of Misato's apartment and in with Rei, who has moved next door to Misato. I stood against the railing of the balcony of Rei's apartment, staring out into the night. I had been awakened by nightmares and since then I had found myself unable to close my eyes. After getting tired of looking at the unfamiliar ceiling of my new room, I chose to gaze at a nicer view. The night air was cold against my bare arms and legs, but I barely registered it. I just looked in fascination at the numerous lights of Tokyo-3. Tokyo-3... The city that I was defending. Why didn't I care about it? Really, what was there left to care about? Why did I go on? Bringing my head down, I looked down at the road below. It was quite a distance from where I stood on the balcony. I couldn't help but wonder... Would I feel any pain if I were to fall all the way down there? Again, for maybe the hundredth time, I remembered the last part of the nightmares that had plagued my sleep. Asuka was standing behind me, that nasty smirk of hers on her face. Then, between laughs, she spoke... 'Idiot!' 'Just a toy!' 'A pathetic little boy!' 'Did you really think that I could ever love you?' 'You're so pathetic!' 'A coward!' 'Hypocrite!' 'Meaningless!' 'Worthless!' 'Useless!' 'Why should we care about you?' 'Who could love a boy like you?' 'Who could...?' 'Who could...?' 'Who could...?' I stiffened when I suddenly felt two arms wrap around my waist and a head lean against my shoulder. For a brief moment, I was frozen with fear, thinking that those arms belonged to Asuka. But I quickly relaxed as I realized that this was reality and not a dream, which meant that those arms could only belong to Rei. "You will catch a cold if you continue to stay out here much longer," she whispered to me. In the cool night air, I could feel her warm breath against my back. I can't begin to tell how good it felt to me right then. "I couldn't sleep." As I felt her lips against my skin, slowly kissing every inch of my neck, I lost complete interest in any thought that I previously had. I turned around and stared at the blue-haired girl. She wore only a light blue nightgown that left very little to the imagination. I had convinced her to at least wear something when she walked around the apartment, in case Misato or someone else from NERV happened to suddenly come over. She also had on her silver cross, now attached to a silver chain. As far as I knew, she always wore it except when she had a swimsuit or a plugsuit on. So far, I hadn't thought about asking her what that cross meant for her. I looked into her red eyes and saw how much she cared for me. In a common accord, our lips met and we stayed locked into each other's arms for what seemed an eternity. "I will make you forget about her..." Rei took my hand and showed me the way to her room. I did nothing to resist. Before leaving the balcony, I looked once more at our city. I had been wrong. There was still something to care about... Sooner than I prefered, we were in her room, by her bed. Once there, Rei took me into her arms again and kissed me. I kissed her back, returning her embrace as well, our hands running over each other's bodies. After a moment of this, Rei broke the kiss and stepped away from me a bit. Before I could say anything, her hands went to the spaghetti-thin straps of her nightgown. With a simple tug, the garment fell off her and to the floor, pooling around her feet and leaving her clad only in matching light blue panties and her cross. I let out a nervous gulp as I stared at her, to which Rei smiled and blushed. As I stared at her body, she approached me again, taking hold of my shirt and pulling it off me. After she discarded it on the floor, she laid down on her bed, her legs drawn up with her knees bent and her hips raised slightly in the air. It took me a moment to realize that she wanted me to remove her panties, and with a bit of hesitation, I did. It took me some time, as I went slowly due to my nervousness, but Rei didn't seem to mind. In fact, she seemed to find it very arousing. Once Rei's panties were off, I removed my own shorts and briefs, then climbed on to the bed to kneel above Rei. As I stared at her, I knew that from that moment on, things would change. I had doubts about my feelings. Part of me was aware that I wanted to get revenge on Asuka. Another part of me believed that I was only using Rei to get over the pain, the same way that Asuka had tried to use me. But deep down, I knew that I truly loved Rei. And I also knew that I had wanted to do this ever since I had laid eyes on her, even though I may have not been aware of that thought at the time. As I kneeled above Rei, staring at her naked body, I felt pretty nervous and scared. I didn't really know what to do, how I should act. Getting such an up-close-and-personal view of Rei's body didn't exactly help, either. I couldn't help but let out a nervous gulp as my gaze wandered over her, taking in her pale skin that seemed to glow in the moonlight... those perfect curves... her breasts, small but still desirable, topped with pink nipples... the triangular patch of blue hair between her long, smooth legs... To this day, I still consider it a miracle I didn't faint right then and there. Rei, however, seemed almost serene. Softly, her voice barely louder than a whisper, she said, "Do not worry, Shinji. Just relax and enjoy it." Then, she instructed me on what I should do, where to touch her and how. I complied as best as I could, but still had trouble considering how nervous I was. Thank God that Rei was always such an understanding girl then, and so patient. Unlike someone else that I could mention, but won't. It started with a kiss. Rei wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me down to her, our lips meeting in yet another of our deep kisses. After getting over the shock of feeling her naked body pressed against my own, I returned the kiss and wrapped my arms around her waist. Our bodies rubbed together as our kiss deepened, and I soon became lost in all the sensations I was feeling; the warmth of Rei's body, unrestricted by clothes, her breasts pressed against my chest, the sound of her moaning and mine. It was all so wonderful, one of those things you'll never forget. I even didn't mind the fact that her cross was poking into my belly. Even that was stimulating in its own way. Eventually, our kiss broke, and as I moved to kiss her neck, I felt a hand reach back to take hold of mine and place upon something soft and warm. It took me a second to realize that what I was touching was, in fact, Rei's breast. For a moment, I panicked, remembering what had happened with Asuka, but I soon relaxed when I saw the look of love in Rei's eyes. As I began to stroke her breast in my hand, feeling her hardened nipple poke into my palm, I couldn't help but take note that even though Rei's breasts were noticeably smaller than Asuka's, they fit just fine into my hand. I first found this out way back at her old apartment, when I went to deliver her new I.D. card and we had that little... accident. Now, however, I had a better chance to enjoy things, as well as see a look of satisfied bliss on Rei's face rather than her old emotionless mask. That sure would have killed the mood right there. Again, Rei didn't use words with her next instruction, but instead used her hands to guide my head to her other breast. Getting the idea of what she wanted me to do, I took her nipple into my mouth. As I gently started to suck on it, I heard her gasp, then moan as I suckled harder, flicking my tongue at and around it and around the edge of her aureole. Her hands ran through my hair as she held me to her breast, her back arching to offer more of it to me. I was more than happy to accept, and after awhile moved on to her other breast to give it equal treatment. This went on for quite some time, as neither of us were that eager to stop just yet. As I continued to please her, I couldn't help but think that what I was doing seemed... familiar, somehow. A weird sense of deja vu, or something. Like I done something like this with Rei before, or at least someone who was... like Rei. Sounds weird, I know, but that's how I felt at the time. I quickly shook the thought out of my head and returned my focus back to giving pleasure to the girl I loved. After a long time of me sucking her breast, Rei pulled me away from there and back to her lips for a kiss. Then, with her hand, she reached down and grabbed my erect penis. This surprised me, especially when she spread her legs and guided me in between there. I gasped when I felt her warm wetness at the tip of my penis head, but on fearful reflex, my body froze up when Rei began to guide me in. I knew that, once inside, there would be no turning back, no changing things to the way that they had been before. Every instinct I had told me to run, that it was a mistake, but the gentle smile on Rei's face gave me reassurance that it would be alright. I took her hand away, placed my own hands on her hips, and finished the journey into her vagina myself. But, probably on some old reflex to get it over with as soon as possible, I went in quick and fast. For a moment, I felt scared when her eyes opened wide in shock and she let out a small yelp of pain as I took her virginity in that swift stroke. But her face soon softened after a moment (too long of one in my opinion), and her hand tenderly touched my cheek, telling me without words that everything was alright. I returned the gesture, using my thumb to wipe away some of her tears. Once she was ready, she told me to go on. I did so, beginning a slow rhythm of thrusting in and out of her that soon sped up as we both moaned our pleasure, our arms wrapping around each other. However, from that point, it didn't take much time before it was all over, and I came inside of Rei. Probably the only high point to it was that she came almost immediately after I did. As we laid together in the afterglow of our lovemaking, me still on top of Rei, I couldn't help but feel a little ashamed of myself and my performance. Hey, I'm a guy; we have our pride, even if I didn't have much of my own back then. Rei must've sensed how I was feeling, as she turned to me with a concerned look on her face. "What is wrong?" Embarrassed, I had to force myself to look at her. "Er, well, um, it didn't, uh..." I stammered. I was so embarrassed, and afraid of how disappointed she might be, that I couldn't finish my reply. Talk about pathetic, huh? But like I said, Rei has always been so understanding, and she simply smiled at me before caressing my cheek with her hand. I immediately relaxed. "Do not worry," she whispered to me. "This was only our first, and we can always try again." I barely had time to let what she had said sink in before she grabbed me and turned us over so that she was now on top. After another deep kiss between us, she began to kiss her way down my body, to my manhood. I knew Rei was a virgin then (I could personally guarantee it), but she showed some amazing knowledge of what to do as she began to plant little kisses along my hardening manhood before she took it into her mouth. I moaned as she sucked and bobbed her head on it, feeling the warm moistness of her mouth surround me. It wasn't the same as her vagina, but it felt just as good, and I was able to hold back my release for a little bit longer than before. I was shocked, though, when I came into Rei's mouth. I was petrified of how she might react, but I remembered that I wasn't dealing with Asuka. Rei didn't even so much as bat an eyelash as she swallowed my semen, and even after she was done she didn't stop sucking. She even let out this little satisfied-sounding moan, like she'd just had her favorite meal or something. Once I was hard again, Rei removed her mouth and positioned her body so that I would enter her again. Unlike me when I was the one on top, she took her time, savoring the feeling of my penis going into her vagina. I savored it, myself, allowing that velvety warmth to surround and caress me, and it was all I could do to keep from grabbing her and forcing her down the rest of the way. Once she was down, though, she took a moment to look at me with that blissful smile on her face before beginning to move herself up and down on me, reversing the situation so that she was now in control. After a bit of this, I grabbed her hips, both to guide her along the way and to give me some leverage to do some thrusting on my part into her. As she said so herself afterwards, I definitely did much better on the second time. It felt more natural, less awkward, and lasted much longer than before. I felt overjoyed as Rei seemed to enjoy it as much as I did, as she came twice before I finally couldn't hold back my own release any longer. After that caused her to come for a third time, she collapsed on top of me, resting in my gentle embrace before rolling off me to the side. As we laid side by side, I couldn't help but admire the beautiful girl, no, woman at my side. Her blue hair stuck against the sweat-covered skin of her face and her cheeks were redder than usual. Her red eyes gazed at me and she smiled. A smile that only I knew. A smile that said, "I love you." My response was to pull her into my arms and kiss her, a soft and gentle one rather than the mad, passionate ones we shared before, until we pulled the covers over ourselves and fell asleep in each other's arms. It wasn't until I woke up the next morning, after taking a moment to stare at my sleeping lover and reflect what had happened the night before, that I really realized the complications of our actions. For starters, I couldn't help but feel guilty. I knew it was stupid, but I felt as if I had betrayed Asuka. Pretty pathetic, huh? She was the one who had betrayed me, first, and here I was feeling guilty because of her. Problem was, I couldn't help but worry of how hurt she would be. However, that wasn't the only reason for how I felt. I also feared for Rei. We hadn't taken any sort of precautions. Sure, we had both been virgins and didn't have to worry about any diseases, but there were other consequences. What if she...? "You are crying. Why?" Surprised, I realized that was indeed crying. I seemed to do that a lot back then. I must have woken up Rei, as she stared at me with a concerned look on her face. I lost it right there and began to sob. "I... I'm so sorry, Rei! I was so stupid..." She gave me a puzzled look. "Why? This intimacy that we shared... it was the best gift you have ever given me..." She ran her fingertips across my chest as she said that, and the way that she had said it, in a sort of soft, husky way, gave a hint that she wanted to do it again. I would've been more than happy to oblige her, if I hadn't had other worries at the time. "That's not what I mean. I... I was so irresponsible... You... you could..." I had to gather all my strength just to complete the sentence. "You could be pregnant right now!" Shock showed on her face. I couldn't tell, but I could have sworn that I saw hope follow after it for a brief moment. Then her expression darkened for a longer moment before she gave me a hint of a smile. "Do not worry. It... it will not happen." There was sadness in her voice. This wasn't exactly the reaction I had expected from her. Then again, I wasn't really sure what reaction to expect from her. "Rei..." A tear slowly fell from one of her eyes. I reached my hand out to touch her cheek, but she moved away and got out of bed. "If... if you do not mind... I... I will go take a bath..." She ran to the bathroom, shutting the door behind her. Part of me wanted to go join her, to see if she was alright and try and comfort her if she wasn't, but I knew better. Whatever it was that had hurt her, it was something that she didn't feel like sharing. My mind kept racing as to whatever it could be. I didn't know why at the time, but one question that was not my own suddenly came to mind. 'Did Rei tell you her secret?' Could those words be related to Rei's sadness? I pushed the thought out of my mind. It was just an attempt by the Commander to draw me away from her, to take away from me what was probably the only ray of hope I had left. Hell would freeze over before I would ever let that happen. I wasn't sure whether or not Rei would be hungry, but after I got out of bed and got dressed, I decided to fix breakfast for both of us, anyway. If I could, I would try to convince her to go to school today. I felt much better than the previous day, so I figured I could probably take care of myself for a few hours. I was done with the rice when I heard the doorbell. That was odd. Who would come by Rei's so early? Curious, I went to see who it was. "Who is it?" I asked as I pressed the button for the intercom. "It's me." I felt a surge of anger when I heard the reply. It was quieter than what I was used to be, but I still recognized it easily. Asuka! That damn little...! Deciding to ignore her, I headed back to the kitchen. But she kept buzzing, and when that didn't work she started to knock. Very loudly, too. After the fifth knock, I gave up. I had forgotten how annoyingly persistent she could be. "What do you want?" I asked as I opened the door but standing in the opening not to let her in, putting as much venom as I could in my voice. Asuka didn't react at all. Her face was blank, emotionless. She just simply said, "Today's Tuesday." I immediately understood the implications of what she had said. I couldn't believe this girl. How dare she ask me to spend the day with her after what she had done? "So what?" I replied, the venom still in my voice. Was it my imagination, or did she actually seem hurt by those words? Whether it was my imagination or not, part of me actually enjoyed it. "It's over," I added. "Go away." I reached for the button to close the door. "No!" Her outburst surprised me. Before I could react, she knocked me to the floor using her elbow, then entered the apartment. "We need to talk!" She didn't seem angry, but rather... desperate. I was confused. This wasn't the Asuka I knew. "GET OUT!" Startled by those words, Asuka and I both turned to see Rei standing at the other end of the hallway that lead to the door. Obviously, she had still been in her bath when Asuka decided to burst in, as she stood there naked, soap and water dripping from her hair and skin down onto the floor. Her eyes seemed to burn with anger. I also noticed that they were redder than usual, as if she had been crying. Asuka didn't say a word. She just stood there, looking at Rei, then at me, then back to Rei again. The pain became obvious on her features. "I see..." she whispered between gritted teeth. As she said those words, I could feel the hurt in her voice. I also couldn't help but wonder, why? Why should she feel pain in the first place? Because someone else was now playing with her toy? Well, too bad for her. "Get out of my apartment," Rei said in a quiet, subdued voice. Her head was bowed low and her eyes were closed. Asuka obeyed the order without so much as a word of her usual protest and even closed the door behind her. I could hardly believe it. What had just happened? At that point, I couldn't understand anything anymore. Did she...? Did she have feelings for me after all? But in this case... why? I didn't have time to think much further about this turn of events when I began to hear sobs. I then noticed Rei, how lying on the floor, tears flowing freely from her eyes. The source of her anger gone, she had just collapsed to the floor in sorrow. She looked completely vulnerable. "Rei!" I cried as I ran to her side and took her into my arms. She was shivering, and wouldn't stop no matter how close or tight I held her. "Rei... what's going on?" It was as if she hadn't even heard me. She didn't even seem to be aware that I was there. I realized that I really couldn't just leave her there on the floor, so I lifted her in my arms and took her back to the bathroom. There, I rinsed the soap out of her hair and off her body, then took a towel and dried her satin white skin and blue hair. Not really knowing what to do next, I took her back to her room, where I laid her in her bed, knowing that she would be warm there under the covers. I took her hand into mine and tried again to reach her. "What's wrong, Rei? What happened? Am I responsible for all this pain? It is me, isn't it? That's all I know how to do... bring pain to myself and those I love..." I was about ready to cry again at that point. She looked at me. I guess I had finally reached her. "No. It is not your fault. I... am the only one to blame..." My eyes went wide with shock. This wasn't what I was expecting. "What?!" "Forgive me, Shinji!" She burst into tears again. I surrounded her frail body with my arms and let her cry against my chest. It felt weird, knowing that the day before, the roles had been reversed. Yet, it filled me with a strange sense of fulfillment. For once, I could help someone I loved feel better. "Tell me..." I whispered as I held her shoulder with one hand and stroked her damp hair with the other. She cried for a few more minutes. I didn't push the issue further, and just continued to hold her. I figured when she was ready, she would tell me. It wasn't long before she did. "I... I can never be a good wife for you. I... I... I am... incapable of giving birth. If you were to stay with me, you... you could never have children!" She then cried some more. It took some time before I completely registered the full impact of what Rei had said. "W-what? Are... are you sure?" She stopped crying for a short time and nodded. "Dr. Akagi told me. I... I am... different... from other women. I... I was never meant to have children of my own." It was a good thing that Asuka wasn't there. She would have definately found some cruel way to turn things to her advantage. And frankly, neither I or Rei didn't need any of her crap at that moment. Rei seemed to be about ready to cry again. But before she could, I tenderly wiped the tears from her cheeks with a finger. She looked up to see me give her a gentle smile. "It's okay, Rei. It doesn't matter..." "But..." I interrupted her by sealing her lips with mine. For a long moment, we shared a gentle kiss, similar to the one we had after our lovemaking the night before. "All I want is you." And I meant what I said. So long as I had Rei, had her love, I would be content. And while I may sound selfish, I was a bit relieved, as I wouldn't have to worry about whether or not I would wind up following the same path as my own father and abandon my child. For the first time that morning, a genuine smile appeared on Rei's face. "Shinji!" She threw herself at me, and again we kissed, more passionately this time. And as things lead to one another, we made love for a third time in less then twenty-four hours. My clothes quickly came off, and pretty soon, we were rolling around in bed, kissing as our hands groped each other. It wasn't long before Rei decided that it was my turn to give her some oral pleasure. I reluctantly allowed her to guide my head down to her vagina, and for a long moment, I couldn't do anything but stare at it. I wasn't sure if I wanted to touch that spot with my mouth, but under Rei's encouragement I placed a small kiss there and took a taste with a small lick of my tongue. Hearing Rei's positive response and finding her juices more tasty than I first thought, I dove in. I sucked on her womanhood with my lips, running my tongue along them both to pleasure her and lick up her juices. I noticed that she really enjoyed it when my tongue touched her clitoris, so I concentrated my attention there. After that, it wasn't long before Rei came, releasing a whole gush of her juices into my mouth. I swallowed as much as I could, though a good deal of it still wound up on my face. I cleaned her up after she was finished, then pulled away and wiped away the access juices with the back of my hand while watching her stare back at me with a blissful smile on her face. Once she recovered, we joined together in a sitting position. Even though it was our third time, it still felt wonderful to enter her, and she was still as wonderfully tight as she was during our first time. We smiled blissfully at each other as we thrusted against each other, me kneeling on my knees while Rei sat on my thighs with her own legs wrapped around my waist. We took our sweet time, going slowly and letting our passions build before we came together at the same time, moaning each other's name. We then collapsed on to the bed, and simply laid in each other's arms, just enjoying each other's presence and warmth. That time was probably the best we had ever had, for it was then that we knew that we truly belonged to one another. And for probably the first time in my whole life, I was really happy. I eventually did talk with Asuka, and found out that she felt that seducing me would be her best chance to win my heart. After all, it did seem that Rei had an advantage over her in just about everything else. I felt guilty at first, since my indecision to choose one of them had indeed hurt one of them, as I had feared. But talking with Rei, and later Kaji, helped me move on with my life, though I still regret what I did to Asuka. We more or less made up and became friends again, though she never seems to hang out with us as much as she used to. I also soon found out the truth about Rei, who and what she was. It took some time, and a lot of thinking on my part, but in the end I was able to accept her despite her origins. I wasn't going to let something like that come between us, no matter what other people thought of it. I loved her, she loved me, and that was all that mattered. And if anyone didn't like it, to hell with them. Several months later, after all the Angels were finally defeated and the plans of the Commander and SEELE were foiled, Ritsuko was proven wrong. That was when Rei gave birth to our daughter, Yui. End The end isn't what Alain had in mind for the end of his story, but keep in mind that this is an alternate side story of events happening in "The One I Love Is...". The idea just struck me when I read the original version of this story, and I decided to fit it into mine. Makes for a happy ending, doesn't it? Time to give credit where credit is due. Much of the material here is based off of an early draft for the second part of chapter 6 of "TOILI", written by my good buddy, Alain Gravel. I simply adapted what he had wrote into my story, adding to or altering some lines to fit both my style and to do a little correcting here and there (no offense, Alain ol' buddy). Obviously, the lemon content is mine, though some of it was lime material originally written by Alain that won't make it into the final draft of the original story (along with some other things that you'll probably only find here). I wasn't originally planning to have three lemon scenes, just have the first one and then let the other two remain how Alain wrote them, as simple lime scenes giving an idea as to what had happened. But as I wrote the story, I realized it would make sense to show how Shinji and Rei's lovemaking would develop with each encounter. So I threw in the other two, but tried to keep them as simple as possible. Obviously, that plan didn't work, but oh well. Previous chapters for "The One I Love Is..." can be found on Alain's homepage at www.geocities.com/Tokyo/Teahouse/2236/. You can also find my "Ranma 1/2" story, "Double or Nothing" there. I'm still working on it, so don't worry. I may also work on some more side stories for "TOILI", so keep an eye out. Until next time...