From: "JOYCE K WAKABAYASHI" Subject: [Eva][FanFic] The Asuka Diaries OK, the basic set up of this story is that it's at least centuries if not thousands of years after 3rd impact. Humanity has established itself to the point they have universities again. A professor is giving a small lecture about an archeological find among the ruins of ancient Tokyo: The Asuka diaries. While she's not the easiest person to get along with, she's one of the more interesting persons to write about. Sometimes I wonder if it would take an Act of God for Asuka and Shinji to ever relate, and this story is the result. Tell me what you think at mobiusklein@prodigy.net. Thank you. The Asuka Diaries These are the only legible fragments left by any of the participants from the Evangelion project before A.R. known formally as After Rebirth. These are from a time period around 1 B.R. or Before Rebirth. This book has been carbon-dated to that era. The Dead Sea Scrolls, rumored to have foreseen the apocalypse, have still yet to be found and may even be just a legend. However, until manned exploration of the black moon has been completed, this is all speculation. These fragments of what appears to be a diary were written in the ancient language of German and were painstakingly translated for several years. This is the result. Fragments that are missing within the pieces will be duly noted. Dates are of yet hard to translate other than year. 2015 AD (Anno Domini or Year of Our Lord in the ancient language of Latin) I encountered my first Angel. Damn things don't even look like Angels. I whipped him, of course, and with style despite having the Third Children aboard. I met the Third Children today. His name is Shinji Ikari. I must admit that he's nothing to look at, not like Kaji. He's so damn wimpy, to think he's killed more Angels than me. Well, that's going to change now that I'm here. It was only later that I learned that he was Commander Gendo's son. Of course, only nepotism could explain him being a Children. I can't believe Kaji just ran off like that. I wasn't the only one pissed off. You should've seen Misato having a fit. 2015 I met the First Children, what a snot! She didn't even try to be my friend. She's got a reputation for being quiet and weird and she deserved every bit of it! And what is with that blue hair and red eyes? I heard that she's always absent from school. I wonder what the hell she's doing. I wish I could skip school as often as she does. School is sooo boring, after all I went to college. It's a good thing I took some Japanese conversation courses or I would've been lost. I screwed up some of the problems because I had some problem with the kanji. Two sound alphabets and a bunch of characters, good night! On the bright side, there's a girl named Hikari Horaki who's been very understanding. The other girls are just dying of jealousy because my locker got filled with mash notes from the guys they like (not that I care about silly boys like them), but she's very motherly and always tries to help me out. She's got to get over this Touji thing though. 2015 This is the 18th day that father and mother haven't called me. I know there's security protocols and phone calls are expensive, but. .. 2015 I wonder if Shinji is gay or what. He was busy doing home work and didn't even take a look at my new swimsuit. I noticed he looked up when Rei got out of the pool. Ah, ha, I'll have to ask Hikari if there's something going on between them. Maybe Shinji is interested in girls, after all, even if he does have bad taste. 2015 Defeated an Angel by myself even if I looked terrible. Shinji surprised me today by grabbing hold of me before I dropped to the bottom of the volcano. It was actually rather [fragment illegible] But now I owe him, ugh. 2015 Argh, I can't believe I did that even though I was bored. The only good thing is that Shinji knows how to keep his mouth shut. Force of habit, I guess. Somebody could ask me, Why did you kiss him? Well, I was curious if there was anything to the guy other than being lame. After all, he is an Eva Pilot after all, right? There's got to be something to him if he can pilot an Eva, right? I had to badger him into it. I was just starting to get into it when he suddenly steps back as if he's realized I've got the plague and gasps, his cheeks all red. How embarrassing. Then Kaji comes in with Misato (passed out drunk, of course). He didn't stay though. I could smell her lavendar perfume all over him. I cried all night because of him. Kaji, that is. 2015 What is with that girl? A couple days ago, an angel appeared. It looked like a floating marble. Well, Shinji outscored me in synchronizing, but he messed up and got swallowed by its shadow. What a dummy! "Oh, I'll show you how it's done," he says. "It's a man's job." It's a man's job, my ass. I was thinking that he better kiss my feet when I save his ass when Rei just comes up, glaring at me and asking why I pilot the Eva. Frankly, I just don't get her. Is she in love with Shinji? She sure doesn't act like it most of the time, being so zombie-like. She should mind her own business. [fragment lost & illegible] scared, but I'll never admit it to anyone. I was just going to visit the retard when I see Rei being all nicey-nice to him in the hospital room. I actually saw her smile. Well, I could see that I wasn't wanted and he was fine anyway. I'll never visit him in the hospital again now that he has Rei as his own personal nursemaid. I shouldn't have even bothered. He's too lucky to die. 2015 Hikari and I went shopping. We were at a ramen shop. We started talking about boys. She still likes Touji. She told me she's going to fix him some lunches. I sigh. She got a bit defensive, saying, Well, you like Kaji. That's different, I told her. Well, she says, I think Shinji likes you. How about him? I nearly bust a gut. Baka-Shinji, I say, he's so dense when it comes to these things. Besides, I think he likes Rei. I thought to myself, Now, that would be a really fitting couple. They could sit together and stare into space. 2015 That idiot! Threatening everyone and quitting like that. I waited with Rei outside wondering how he was doing. I knew that he wasn't too badly hurt, but. . . Well, something Rei said really took me by surprise. She doesn't know what a dream is. There is something mighty wrong with this girl and it ain't just her blue hair. I telephoned Hikari and told her that Touji was alive. I didn't go into much detail as I figure that it would be best if she saw for herself. It wasn't until a few days after Shinji was discharged that I heard that he was quitting. I was just beginning to think he wasn't so damn wimpy as I thought he was. I can't even believe I'm disappointed. Well, good, go ahead and run away, you damn fool! I have no plans on saying goodbye to you, I don't want to look at you. Don't expect me to come to the station like Misato and beg for you to stay on and fight the Angels. Boo Hoo! I always thought this job was just for me and now you've proven it. The only reason you're alive is that dummy plug your daddy turned on to save you. I'm glad you're leaving because that means that the best pilot, the bravest pilot is Asuka Soryu Langley!! 2015 I can't believe I lost to Shinji, again. They say he's in the hospital and won't be able to have visitors for a while. Well, good, I don't want to see him. I can't bear to see him. I hate myself. Ayanami's in hospital, again. Looks like she'll be out in less tha a week, like usual. 2015 Shinji's been taking a long time to recover. I wonder what happened. Misato and Kaji aren't saying anything. Ritsuko and Maya are busy doing whatever. Forget about asking Rei or the Commander. I wonder if the baka really got messed up this time. 2015 Kaji's been gone a long time. I wonder where he went. I wonder if he's disgusted with me for being a bad pilot. Baka-Shinji must be feeling really sorry for me because he's been trying to act extra nice. I don't want him to feel sorry for me. 2015 Something's going terribly wrong with me. I don't understand. My periods have just started and they're terrible. I can't concentrate like I used to. I was holding a hot water bottle to my stomach when Shinji asks me, 'Are you OK, asuka?' Do I look OK? I want to scream. My synch rates keep on dropping. 2015 Today was the worst day of my life. I screwed up again. I couldn't defeat the Angel. It went inside me and [fragment illegible] The idiot comes up to me and says he's glad to see I'm alive. Is he so stupid he couldn't see that this was the only thing I had. I was beaten by that doll. Why does he care? It's not like I'm worth a damn any more. Why doesn't he understand that I'm going to be shipped off back to Germany in disgrace? I hated crying in front of him. I used to laugh at him for whining and crying so much, but now I'm doing the exact same thing. I hate him, I really do. 2015 Hikari told me that Shinji had called for the fifth time. It's strange to me to think that shinji had bothered to call. Maybe Misato put him up to it. I told her to tell him that I wasn't here. I just didn't want to see his face. Hikari said, "Shinji sounds really worried; he's been asking everyone if they know where you are." I know Hikari's worried about me, but I can't help it. And I know that she can't help me. Nobody can. Momma left me, my father and his wife never call, Kaji's disappeared. Nobody from Nerv really cares about me if I can't ride my red Eva. What am I going to do now? Who will protect me? Not much is known about what happened after that except that Third Impact happened soon afterwards. What information that we have is that Asuka and Shinji survived that impact and lived the rest of their lives together in the ruins of the metropolis called Tokyo. Whether or not the First Parents were happy together is a matter of conjecture, whether they stayed together because there was no one else they could turn to or whether being one in that Angel made out of LCL for that short period of time had erased the anger, the hatred, the frustration between them so that they were able to ask each other, "Do you love me?" THE END